And so the process begins

Okay so today I start some new medications. One for depression and anxiety and another mood stabilizer that hopefully will give the first the boost it needs to make it effective. Sadly it will take a week or two for me to start feeling the affects, so I'm still going to be off for a few weeks.

I could not be starting these medication at a better time. The last 2 days have been very bad. I am extra stressed, anxious, and emotional about everything, even things that shouldn't bother me at all. Today was an extremely hard day and thankfully I had Kate to talk me down off the ledge a few times. Being a stay at home mom for a 3 year old is not easy for anyone, but with these problems its much harder. I am even having a hard time on Facebook, because of different posts about abuse. It just makes me so upset. I also like to watch the news, but that too is getting much harder too. 

Due to my illness I am not able to work. I know this sounds like a cop-out but it really isn't. It's impossible to find and keep a job when the idea of being in public causes an anxiety attack. Because of this we've ( Ted, Dr, and I) made the decision to apply for Social Security Disability, in order to relive some of the financial stress and give us the extra money needed to get the therapies I need. And I'm proud to say that today the application has been submitted. Now it's just a waiting game to see what happens, but I'm preparing myself for at least a six month wait.